Wish List - Christmas in July?

[40cakes]

I want to ignore it.

I want to cry some more.

I want to call him and scream at him again and call him out as the passive-aggressive coward he is.

I want to send her my list.

I wanted to know his OC name so I could see with my own eyes his cheating on me, as his participation there is when I noticed, "Oh the boy who says he's not interested in sex is complimenting the girly pictures and porn. Lovely." It's also when he got secretive and disallowing of me on his computer.

I want to set him on fire if it turns out I've done all this harassing and hair pulling to get him out of unemployment and she gets the guy who instantly gets a job for her.

I want the money to be able to purchase everything he's touched or bought me because it's filthy and I want to throw it out.

I want her to know he's not a god; he's not even a man.

I want a new box of tissues.

I want a ride to Hamilton.

I want him to be a responsible adult.

I want this to all go away. As quickly as possible.

I want her to know it's very good of her to draw him as a weasel.

I want sleep.

Comments

[cheekybaby.livejournal.com]

He is SO not worth this. I know you need to, but he's a douche, man. You rock so much harder than him.

[aria13.livejournal.com]

Agreed. *sends hugs*

[zuppy28.livejournal.com]

I want you to be happy.

[aphelant.livejournal.com]

*huggles*


*sends tissues and chocolate*


*licks*

So long and thanks for all the fish!

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

Your wish is granted because you want to know what.

I KNOW.

Surprise, surprise. Let's make a protected entry now so all the gaijin otaku fan fic losers can call me a furry and go OMG THAT ROB IS SUCH A DOUCHE BAG AM I RITE, LOL WE ARE SO MUCH BETTER. LOL EMO. OMG PRENUP. Hey, fuck you guys. I tried to extend myself as a friend to you because you were hurting. Maybe we should ream into Casey, because hey children, Casey's not innocent, oh no, oh no. Only no..because some of us don't act like we're 14 on the LOLINTERNET. P.S. Ask about that hiatus e-mail and then look up the word hiatus..wait you people aren't old enough to use dictionaries. Haha. Net humor.

HA. Sorry children, no. You're getting a one-sided hysterical story from a very nice young lady who needs to calm the fuck down and get on with her life.

Now for a point by point of some of the finer things in this lj:

"I want to call him and scream at him again and call him out as the passive-aggressive coward he is."

Yep, because you know, just being AGRESSIVE-AGRESSIVE makes you fucking cool. Oh hell you're right, I'm doing it now.

"I want to send her my list."

If this is the list of all his "personality flaws and things you want to change so he's not really Rob anymore because you didn't really love Rob, you loved 18 year old Rob, haha." Sorry, I don't want that bullshit. Don't bother.

"I wanted to know his OC name so I could see with my own eyes his cheating on me, as his participation there is when I noticed, "Oh the boy who says he's not interested in sex is complimenting the girly pictures and porn. Lovely." It's also when he got secretive and disallowing of me on his computer."

He didn't want you on his computer because he's got writing and stuff on there from his life that he didn't feel comfortable to show, because you guys didn't you know, connect. JUST LIKE YOU DIDN'T SHOW HIM YOUR FANFIC LOL OMG PORN and GIRLS. LOL POLYSCI DEGREE. CREATIVE WRITING. GET IT RIGHT. Do you even know the people that go to that forum? No you don't, but if you did you'd realize this statement means you're a fucking idiot.
You want the web address? I'll paste it to your forehead.

"I want to set him on fire if it turns out I've done all this harassing and hair pulling to get him out of unemployment and she gets the guy who instantly gets a job for her."

CONGRATULATIONS! YOU'RE THE WORLDS NEXT ARSONIST! BETTER GET SOME GASOLINE.

"I want her to know he's not a god; he's not even a man."

I want you to know, your perception is all fine and dandy, I'm aware of what you think. P.S. I don't give a shit.

"I want him to be a responsible adult."

LOL, BECAUSE RESPONSIBLE ADULTS MAKE FRIENDS ONLY EMO POSTS SO THEIR LITTLE OTAKU FAGGOT FRIENDS CAN GO "OMG THAT GUY DOESN'T LOVE SAILOR MOON LET'S ALL CRY TOGETHER"

"I want her to know it's very good of her to draw him as a weasel."

I want you to know that that was an inside joke you'll never get, but isn't he cute. Oh yes he is. LOL FURRIES.

So in synopsis; you're a douche bag, your friends are douche bags and you all missed the boat. Now you can all click on my lj and try to insult me and laugh and hey, who gives a fuck because oops, you can't.

I love you all.

Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[fadingembers.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[arafel.livejournal.com]

Honey, I have no personal bitch with you, but you ought to know that I've never seen anyone piss off people as fast as your new sweetie. The Jeff Goldblum/emo boy act does, indeed, get old after a while. I wish you two lovebirds luck, because... truthfully, you're going to need it.

Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

After some consideration, I decided I will respond to at least this comment, since you seem to be a genuinely nice, and decent person (but then so is Casey, she just made me very angry after awhile in very short notice.)

I'd like to know where you people get this idea that I don't know what his personality is like. Let me set the record clear since you don't know much about me at all. I have known Robert for 3 years, I know damn well how big of an asshole, a douche bag, a jerk or whatever other nasty kind of adjective you'd like to place here he can be. I didn't just meet him, there aren't any surprises. The reality is, you don't know my personality, and chances are in some aspects compared to yourself and Casey I differ greatly, because as it is I really don't see things the way you do.

I like people like Rob. I should know, I've been that way since I was 14. If my best friend were alive today you'd be less than shocked to know he's almost a split image of Rob and we were inseparable friends from our 14th year up until his passing in 2003. After a decade of that I think I know what I like or what I don't. Please don't tell me I don't. I don't care if he ridicules my friends. I ridicule my friends. If they act like idiots they're going to know. I hope you can accept that.

I'd kindly ask that people stop telling me what I should know (which is what sparked me in the end to blow up at Casey), what I shouldn't be doing, what I should be expecting, or any of this. I'm not a fool. Just because my romantic relationship with him is new, doesn't mean I don't know him.

I don't need luck, I just want people to understand they don't know both sides of the coin.

Re: Mostly Harmless

[fadingembers.livejournal.com]

I'm not gonna repeat the "You Win" sentiment a lot of people have said here. Rob is not a prize that we were fighting over. I don't believe you were cheating on me. Yes, hiatus meant we were free to date other people. But that was a side perk. We were allegedly on it to take a break and think about ourselves as a couple and where we were headed. That's what I spent two weeks doing. Rob apparently skipped right to the perk and started chatting up the ladies. He was very upset when we broke up, and I've spent two weeks worrying about him and hoping he was okay and hoping he was starting to enjoy being single and relaxing without me around.

And then I found out you exist. So when I talked to my friends so they could relax me enough so I could get to bed, he probably went straight to you (obviously not in person - phone or IM, you know what I mean) and you exchanged I love yous, and he went to bed a happy camper. So I feel like the fool in all this.

It's not about you. Frankly, if you were a curly-haired WASP from NJ who worked at a cable network, I'd've found something rude to say. It wasn't your job to let me know you were with him, it wasn't your job to tell me that when I was trying to call Rob to break up with him, he didn't answer because he was visiting you. I'm upset with him, despite his best intentions or what-have-you, and you're just getting insults as a side shoot. I really didn't want my friends to jump in and start replying to everything here, I hoped everyone would get the hint that my reply was not upset and we'd all set down weapons and such.

Add in these ingredients, and you can really see why I'm so upset and lashing out:
1. For all you seem to know about me and my relationship with Rob, I know nothing of you. I didn't even know you existed until I found out ACCIDENTALLY myself.
2. You got something in one month that I thought I had given up hoping for in 5 1/2 years.
3. Going back over my breakup conversation with Rob, I realized everything that made my heart break for him and made me hope he was okay and would be happy and not just sit in his room being alone, was a lie.

I'd prefer to carry this out on email or IM rather than here if you have anything else to say (I did want to email, but you seem to have taken it down from your LJ page).

Re: Mostly Harmless

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

I will give you my e-mail, Casey. I didn't take it down from the page though so that's rather weird. I'm going to have to look into that, right now.

Feel free to IM me if you like, I never detracted that offer. Nor will I.

Re: Mostly Harmless

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

As an addedum:

I fixed the page. Don't know what that was all about.

Also, thank you for saying what you said here, because you are correct, we're not in a contest and I don't think I'm the winner and you're the loser, that's not it at all. I'm glad that you, the most important person here out of everyone didn't miss that.

And I say I'm sorry, but only to you, because you're still the only person here that matters.

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[mistressrenet.livejournal.com]

One question: If you're so happy and secure in your relationship, why have you come over to this LJ?

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[k-diddy.livejournal.com]

Because people who are happy and secure must keep saying they're happy and secure just to prove how happy and secure they really are!

WHY MUST YOU QUESTION THE HAPPINESS AND SECURITY!? You're like those mean girls in high school, always questioning people's happiness and security! PLEASE STOP STUFFING ME INTO LOCKERS AND LAUGHING AT MY CLOTHES!

*sob*

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[mistressrenet.livejournal.com]

*blows kisses*

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

Did come over, aside from this it's really past tense now. To be honest it's not lack of happiness or security realtionship-wise, it was a bezerk moment on my part because I get annoyed by people making assumptions about people they don't know and basically being..well I don't know a good word that won't sound highly insulting right now. I'm sure the majority of these people are nice people who want to defend there friends feelings, but other people involved have feelings too. I can admit the means at which I conveyed those feelings at the time was highly irrational, but rage usually does that to a person. Ironically, if they actually knew me and wanted to insult me it would annoy me less, but they know nothing.

My rage is gone. The faster this ends, the better it is for everyone.

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[mistressrenet.livejournal.com]

I understand you care deeply for Rob-- you guys are engaged-- but if you really think you're the winner in all this, coming over here to go 'nyah nyah you don't know me' is...pretty damn immature, and I'm glad you've realized that.

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[prettykate.livejournal.com]

Loads of girls fall for losers.

Not every girl gets the satisfaction and closure of knowing that her ex is GOING TO MARRY A FURRY WHO WORKS AT SEARS. I mean seriously, this is the biggest fucking joke on the planet, or it will be once you can get over the breakup. I can't see how this can't speed up the process.

A FURRY.
A FURRY WHO IS IN HER 20'S.
A FURRY IN HER 20'S WHO LIKES SONIC THE HEDGEHOG.
A FURRY IN HER 20'S WHO LIKES SONIC THE HEDGEHOG SO MUCH THAT SHE IMAGINES HERSELF TO BE A LITTLE HEDGEHOG THING AND DRAWS CRUDE DRAWINGS ON THE INTERNET OF HERSELF AS A... WHATEVER THAT ANIMAL IS.

It boggles my mind that this subculture even exists. I might enjoy imagining myself as someone else if my life involved picking up another woman's scraps online, and then harassing her dude to my insecurity, BUT REST ASSURED IT WOULD BE A HUMAN BEING. Also: it would NOT be from a really old lame video game. I mean, SONIC THE HEDGEHOG?!

Also: Did we not talk about Sonic the Hedgehog the other day and how crazy it is that you were able to find people on the internet who were not only insane enough to think they were video game figures from another dimension, but that they were ANIMAL video game characters from SONIC THE HEDGEHOG? I feel like I am in a time warp.

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

Ironically my last art project got me $500.00. IN A DAY. You probably only see that when you're out on the streets giving head to the real furries because you don't even know what the definition of furry is. When somebody hires me to draw them a picture for $500.00 featuring a girl with the I.Q of a 6 year old, getting reamed up the ass by her equally retarded loser Otaku friends with a Sailor Moon magic wand, I'll be sure to use you as the main subject matter.

Cheers!

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[flyinglobster.livejournal.com]

Oh, man, the ol' "I make money off this so I win" style of putting people down - whenever you get to making references to Hitler or the Nazis in this thread, let me know.

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[nighthood.livejournal.com]

Silly, she thinks I'm a loser because I work for Sears. I'm explaining that's a side job. That and let's be honest with ourselves, I'm putting her down because she's retarded. I'm sorry if she's your friend, but she doesn't know what she's talking about and if she wanted to make an intelligent post, then I could get into an intelligent conversation with her about how the fact I happen to like Sonic the Hedgehog doesn't imply I've ever fantasized myself into some alternate dimension as one of the characters. I draw fan art sure, but we could arguably say that's no worse than half the people on Casey's friends list more than likely writing fan fics.

I actually don't hate Kate, she's probably equally as nice as the majority of these people, but if she wants to act like a know it all 4 year old well, she's going to get an equally nasty reply.

You also seem fairly nice, so maybe it'll stay that way.

In the end genuine animosity wins nothing.

(frozen) Re: So long and thanks for all the fish!

[prettykate.livejournal.com]

I don't know what that means because I live in the real world with the non-furries! But you can draw pictures of me if you want!

Drop me an email...

[carpdeus.livejournal.com]

I might have something that can help with this...