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So I realized I keep talking about "Yeah, I can go live my life now and do things and I'm gonna do stuff!" without actually outlining anything. I wanted to make a list of things I absotively posolutely need to accomplish before I'm dead dammit (provided death comes from old age and not a freak accident involving a trapeze, a low-flying helicopter, a flock of seagulls, and the Hudson river or something).
And while I was formulating this list in my head, I thought, "Say, I feel like I've done this before..." and realized I had. At some point in high school. When I was home this weekend, I dug through my closet to find my old journal (before the internets, we wrote our journals in pencil and paper and wrote "KEEP OUT" all over them because there were incredibly important things in there, like how hot Mark-Paul Gosselaar was) and found this old list of things High School Casey needed to accomplish.
Man.
Well, it's good to point out that most of the things I was really serious about, I've accomplished, and that feels pretty good. Sadly, I don't think I'll ever have that torrid affair with Ben Affleck, and that doctorate in psychology is out the window now. But hey, I think High School Casey would be very happy with where Adult Casey is now. I'm sure she'd sneer at her for wasting too much paper and wearing makeup and not showing off blue nail polish anymore.
So I'm making a new list. And no pie-in-the-sky bullshit where it sounds good to keep TALKING about doing it someday. Dates and plans. I'll even start off with something I've been talking about doing for years and finally did.
( I want to live, I want to love, I want to learn how not to hate )
I think I'll stop while I'm ahead. Maybe add things as I cross them off. I know patience is a virtue, but I'm generally impatient and will be chomping at the bit to DO EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW OMG if I list anymore. Also will potentially run out of money. This is a good list, though. I dig.
[UPDATE] #5: This place in Oregon has a seminar for $125, and they hold them at least one Sunday a month. Orbitz has a flight + hotel deal for $400. I could make that work by November. Maybe I'll push back the West Coast plans to Deadline April 06? Or maybe since I know this happens pretty regularly, wait until spring when it's not fucking freezing in Oregon. Hmmm.
And while I was formulating this list in my head, I thought, "Say, I feel like I've done this before..." and realized I had. At some point in high school. When I was home this weekend, I dug through my closet to find my old journal (before the internets, we wrote our journals in pencil and paper and wrote "KEEP OUT" all over them because there were incredibly important things in there, like how hot Mark-Paul Gosselaar was) and found this old list of things High School Casey needed to accomplish.
Man.
Well, it's good to point out that most of the things I was really serious about, I've accomplished, and that feels pretty good. Sadly, I don't think I'll ever have that torrid affair with Ben Affleck, and that doctorate in psychology is out the window now. But hey, I think High School Casey would be very happy with where Adult Casey is now. I'm sure she'd sneer at her for wasting too much paper and wearing makeup and not showing off blue nail polish anymore.
So I'm making a new list. And no pie-in-the-sky bullshit where it sounds good to keep TALKING about doing it someday. Dates and plans. I'll even start off with something I've been talking about doing for years and finally did.
( I want to live, I want to love, I want to learn how not to hate )
I think I'll stop while I'm ahead. Maybe add things as I cross them off. I know patience is a virtue, but I'm generally impatient and will be chomping at the bit to DO EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW OMG if I list anymore. Also will potentially run out of money. This is a good list, though. I dig.
[UPDATE] #5: This place in Oregon has a seminar for $125, and they hold them at least one Sunday a month. Orbitz has a flight + hotel deal for $400. I could make that work by November. Maybe I'll push back the West Coast plans to Deadline April 06? Or maybe since I know this happens pretty regularly, wait until spring when it's not fucking freezing in Oregon. Hmmm.
